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+    Sometimes, people are seen as their disorder. Other times,
+    the disorder is completely erased. Neither is good.
+    
+    On one hand, I want people to see me as a person like them,
+    and to speak to me on grounds of us both being human. I want
+    them to talk to me as myself, not just as an autistic person,
+    or a depressed person, or whatever else. They're not talking
+    to my mental illness. In truth, I don't know and can't be sure
+    of how others really perceive me, especially since I do not
+    have my issues plastered on my face. Well, usually. ADHD and
+    autism can be pretty visible on me. Regardless, I don't know
+    whether people attach it to my existence in their heads.
+    However, all through school years, I was infantilised by my
+    classmates. I was younger than them. This frustrated me
+    as I grew up. Sometimes I leaned into it because it meant
+    they can easily dismiss my strange behaviour as childish
+    instead of pathologizing it. Part of me doesn't want being
+    strange to be the main component of somebody else's perception
+    of me when they are talking to me.
+    
+    On the other hand, I'm sick of trying to act normal. I don't
+    want to continue pretending that my mental illness doesn't
+    affect me and to try and be seen as normal. I'll never be
+    normal by common standards. Maybe by someone else's standards,
+    I'm perfectly fine (see anti-psychiatry). ADHD is actually not
+    the concern here. It's a very common disorder. Acceptance is
+    increasing, too. Other issues people may have, however,
+    remain stigmatized, especially personality disorders and
+    schizophrenia spectrum, but I digress. The other part of me
+    wants to embrace the times I've been called mad. If people
+    are going to hate me or be scared of me, I'm going to give
+    them a reason to. I'm going to become a vampire. On a more
+    serious note, I want people to acknowledge that the way I think
+    and act, no matter how odd, is because of my mental illness.
+    I don't want them to reduce me to it, but to acknowledge it as
+    a part of me.
+    
+    Some people insist that creativity is separate from mental
+    illness, and I agree. Human creativity isn't indicative of
+    an issue. Making colorful geometric art does't mean you've
+    taken psychedelic drugs, for example. And you don't need to
+    be depressed to make meaningful or poignant art. Despite that,
+    I've noticed that the works of mine that I like most come
+    from deep in my psyche, and my psyche is ill.
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